I feel like I want to record for the world was is happening... but I don't even understand fully what that is. So how can I record it? Maybe writing it out makes me feel like I can understand it, or process it more. Maybe writing it out will make it seem not so crazy. I feel kind of stupid. I know no one is reading this, but I think it helps me cope.
John is back at the sleepwalking, and I feel like I might be doing it now too. We found dirty footsteps coming in from our door, but clearly no one broke in. We've even got a new lock and we know that only our parents and our neighbor has the key. And our neighbor Todd did not do it. Unless, could it have been someone he knew? Was there anyone staying with him? Do I even ask or does that sound crazy?! Anyway John wants to set up the alarm system again, which would at least keep him (or us) from wandering outside. the reason I thought it could have been me is because the footsteps were too small for John.
So you see this is all very nuts. On top of it, I keep seeing this man, or woman, or something in our house. Or around us. Out of the corner of my eye I might see it, but when I look directly at it then it disappears. It's like a glare in my lens or something, a light refraction, but when you turn it goes away. That's how I'm interpreting. But what is it? Why does it feel so clearly to me like it's a figure. Like it's some entity? Is our house haunted? I never believed in that stuff. I'm religious, yes, but don't believe in things like spirits like a spirit's soul staying in our house! I still don't, but my eyes keep telling me, and my heart keeps pounding every time it happens. Sometimes it happens as I'm waking up and it really takes my breath away. I can't breathe, like it's standing on